Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Lulls


I've got a big pot of Tortilla Soup on the stove! It smells delicious. Jessie G is watching Dora and playing with play dough. I just walked by her and said, "You look like you need a kiss." She puckered up, received her kiss and continued on! Gavin got to go into the mountains (with his Grandpa) and see Daddy's elk! Jessie was sad saying, "I miss my brother." So we jumped on my bike and headed to Hastings to get a movie, play dough and a gum ball. That combo seems to solve the sister blues! I've got a case of the blues as well. There is no reason for it ...just an inward sort-of lull today. These come and go and there is often no reason for it ...well, besides the usual sways of the world and body. Where Jessie needs a bike ride, movie, play dough and gum ball, I need: a bike ride, delicious meals, painting (or a place to focus,) music and time to be quiet. We're very similar ...it's nice knowing lulls can be somewhat expected and uncomplicated. *Oh yes! FLOWERS = mutual blues breaker! (how could I forget?!)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Prayers and Returns

I feel the need to communicate after being computer-less for a week! I just walked outside to give the birds the last of our bread stash (end pieces and those nearing stale or moldy status.) I love when the little sparrows fly in and chirp chirp! My mom used to ask me if they said, "thank you thank you!" and now I see that they do say that! It's beautiful weather and our backyard has golden leaves -BUT- my sweet peas are still producing multi-colored cheerful blooms!

I started cleaning out the basement while the computer was down. I thought it'd be a huge task but it's turning out to be fun. I just pull one tote at-a-time upstairs, sort it, organize and bring what's not needed to the thrift store. It's not even too difficult to part with some of the kid's clothes. I thought that this process would have me pondering our decision to move forward with two beautiful children rather than having a third. I sort, think about where we've been, as a family, and appreciate where we are ...so appreciate where we are!

I've sent out a couple of prayers this past week. I'm impressed to have found that those prayers, for others, were precisely what I was in need of as well. I teared-up when the first one came around with perfect timing. It was simply a deep breath in the midst of chaos ...exactly what I'd wanted for a drive-through attendant at Starbucks. I thought it was a minor prayer that could make a nice shift for the man and it turns out ...it is quiet a significant prayer when realized personally.

The next prayer was for a close friend who has returned to old habits that were endangering his life, others and his marriage. My prayer was in the form of a letter that I gave a lot of attention to --wanting to make sure I didn't preach but reminded him of how very significant he is to me, to his family and the world he touches. I prayed that he would stop trying to escape to numb places and find the very simple things that bring him happiness and be present there. My computer crashed the day after I wrote that letter and I realized how very submerged I was in another world ...rather than the one that makes a difference HERE. I laughed at how obvious it was that another prayer had gone out and come around to me. Maybe I wouldn't witness the need of the prayer, for another, if I wasn't also in a similar place? All I am certain of is that the universe, God, has heard me and I've recognized several answers and I say "Thank You Thank You!!"